Game Over

Hey, I'm back.

I think most of you know about why I was gone--but to recap: I was thinking that this blog might hinder my job search, so I hid it. But things change, and I decided that I probably won't be looking until after the holiday (I'm going home next week to KC) so here I am. Back online.

Today was my last day of finals. It feels really weird being done with school. For the last 20 years I've been in school, I don't know anything else. I'm worried/nervous about finding work (am I cut out for the 9-to-5?). Today the last of my childhood died. Ouch.

I'll miss UMSL, it's been my home these past two and a half years. I'm glad I moved off campus this semester, or I'd be facing a big-scary-move right about now (and that's no fun, plus I have enough on my mind). After my last final EVER (Victorian Prose and Poetry), I went and hung out with my friends. It's weird, but for some reason I can only make friends just before things end. I always make friends with people about a month before it's time to say goodbye. They convinced me to get back on FACEBOOK so we can keep in touch, but I've heard that before. Anyway, that made it all the more sad.

Once we all said goodbye, I went to the computer lab and printed off 10 more pages of my novel (use that free printing one last time). Then I just sort of walked around, still not believing that it was all over--just like that.

It's like the goddamn last episode of MASH. I'm Hawkeye-Pierce, bitching about hating Korea...then having a nervous breakdown when I find out I get to go home.

In short, I'm filled with mixed emotions.