Have you seen THERE WILL BE BLOOD? No??? Well there is a scene where the protagonist, Daniel Plainview, says something like: "I have a problem, I don't like it when others succeed." Okay, that's a bit of a paraphrase...but you get the drift.
Well that's me. I am such a stupid petty/jealous boy. Have you done more with your life? I fucking hate you. Is it your fault I'm such a loser? Hell no, but FUCK you anyway.
I bet you're wondering why I'm on such a jealous kick right now. No? Too bad, I'm going to tell you anyway. I know someone (very distant in the circle of people whom I know) who recently sold a script for $400,000. A normal, "good" person would be happy. I am a self-obsessed little-fuck who can't take it when other people (with more drive and talent) get the things I want.
Gee I'm petty. This has been eating me up inside for the past four days or so...I hope that once this is posted, all my evil-venom will have been sucked out of me. I really hate that I feel this way--but it's a vicious cycle because I feel bad that I feel bad...which makes me feel bad...ugh...I need to go lie down.
Someone cheer me up.